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i just want to be loved
performance 2010
I Just Want to Be Loved is a performance piece exploring identity and self-perception as a woman living on the Ciudad Juárez-El Paso border. Straddling two cultures, I often feel torn—never entirely American or entirely Mexican. Do I conform to American ideals of physique and behavior, or do I embrace the curves and contours inherited from my Mexican ancestors?
For three months, I documented my body through daily photographs, kept a journal, and recorded my voice as I sought to balance my Mexican-American identity. This intimate process became a meditation on the expectations and pressures tied to being a woman in a place shaped by overlapping cultural identities.
The work was inspired by Eleanor Antin's Carving: A Traditional Sculpture (1972), in which the artist documented her body’s transformation over 36 days. Like Antin, I used self-documentation to explore the boundaries of identity and self-representation, layering my personal experience with broader cultural tensions.
Photos© Andrew Reiner